God also wants the believer to realize the deceitfulness of self. Many time the mouth speaks of dependence on God, but in actuality it is dependence on self! Many time there is some dependence on God, but more dependence on self! When the believer is in this condition. God has on choice but to allow him to fail some more. This will show him how much he is still secretly depending on his self. Every failure makes the beliver realize that he has fallen to that state only because he has made reservation for his self. How deceitful we are! How intense is our heart for the self! Is it not true that in everything we do and in all our motives, there is the mixture of the self? Perhaps we have consecrated ourselves to God, and we think that we are more faithful than others. Yet we do not realize how wild and unbridled our heart and mind are toward the world and and its people. God must bring us to the place of failure, to expose our hidden and secret motives through our conduct, before we realize how deceitful we are. Our mouth may say that we are living fully for God, and outwardly we may act as if we are serving Him wholeheartedly. Actually, all these are for our own boasting, glorying and receiving the praise of others. God wants us to know the self. He wants us to realize that these are our motives. Therefore He allows us to fail so that in our failure we may judge ourselves and learn to realize that even when we have not failed, we are still for the self and are stealing God’s glory. Many believers are still living according to the deceitful self! Many believers are still taking self as the principle of all their living! Nearly everything is for the self and from the self. One category of believers–the deceitful believers–is more dangerous that all. It seems that they can never break away from their self. If they learn one more thing or know one more matter. It is all for glorifying the self. This is true not only in spiritual matter, but in secular matters as well. If they have leearned something or understood something, they will take this as reason for them to boast about their self. Oh, the deceitfulness of the flesh! Who can fully know it? God must break and demolish such believers and strip them of all their smooth environments so that they will be deprived of all their means to expand themselves. God has to deal with them in the most severs environment; otherwise, they will still exalt and boast about themselves.
Boast not thyself of to morrow; for thou knows not what a day may bring forth.
CB Helping Hands Ministries
To God Be The Glory
Minister David A. Benjamin